3-18-26

Life really doesn't stop never stopping. I feel like I've hardly had time to breathe these past couple of months. Barely watched any movies so far, perhaps 20, which is really low numbers for me. It's difficult to sit down that long, focus on something that'll make me feel something profound. I've been emotionally on edge all winter, but the springtime sun isn't making much difference. All this to basically say I have not thought about my site in a minute lol.

For something positive: within the last couple of years I've gotten really into baseball. I never cared much about sports growing up. My dad was a huge football fan for the Steelers, though in recent years he isn't so crazy about it. My partner, a couple of years ago, came across The Bob Emergency video from Jon Bois on youtube and showed it to me. Taking a bizare look at sports (a record of every athlete named Bob) from someone deeply interested in it shifted something in my perspective. After going through the entire history of the Seattle Mariners, I decided that was my team. It's been off and on ever sense, but I did get invested into the World Series and more recently dove face first into the World Baseball Classic. I watched as many games as I could find, the highlights, and started to actually really get into it. I started learning some names of players and making predictions off what I'd seen, which was just really fun. I'm even trying to take a trip around my birthday to see the Mariners play.

I've also been trying to understand how to feel at the end of a nearly decade long game of Dungeons and Dragons. Our story is finally at its end, after multiple moves to different state (all me,) marriages, and children! These guys have been my friends for 8 years, somehow through the chance of working at the same restaurant in my hometown. Part of me is worried we won't remain as close without this game, but I am excited to see how it all ends. While dealing with this, I think I'll make my character Nyx my first OC on the OC tab I'm working on. Somewhere to show off my lil guys that I rotate in my head so much. I'm trying to get better at keeping a consistent schedule, so none of my skills fall off, so I'm going to try picking at this site little by little.

Somehow it was getting back in to farm sims that made me learn to slow my roll and only consider a chunk at a time. I'd finally started terraforming my Animal Crossing island after the 3.0 update, along with getting back into Stardew, since I haven't played since before 1.6. It's been nice not to feel rushed, as I often do in these games, but just keep it to what I feel happy playing. No need for so much farm that I spend half a day caring for it. I've been really into Fields of Mistria for this, because it naturally has no friendship decay so I can go days just doing what I like without half the town getting mad at me. It, too, just had a big recent update and I've been trying to focus on getting to the new story. There are dragons to meet!